HOW IT ALL BEGAN
A Word From Our Founder
My name is Jocelyn and I'm the founder of The Torn Pages Project.
This About section I suppose may be unlike others, as it is routed in something deeply personal. While other blogs may start out as a self exploration or with a hobby, mine started as a result of a mental health breakdown.
Earlier this year, I couldn't get out of bed. It started as simply as that, I didn't know why but I was filled with a pervasive sadness that could not be shifted. As a chronic over-achiever all my life, this came as a shock and something that would later shatter my reality as I knew it. I had always been able to do what I wanted and being a mixture of lucky and hardworking, I often got what I wanted. So to go from that to not being able to get out of bed was something I was not accustomed to. As is always the case, the signs were abundant that I was heading down that road, but they are always easier to read in the rearview mirror with hindsight as the most irritating backseat driver.
Prior to this I had begun writing for a bit of fun but this became integral in the aftermath of my breakdown. I was incredibly privileged to be able to use poetry to process this trauma, but the more writing helped me, the more I wondered why others didn't do this more. And then it hit me, it was the self same reason why I was using a pseudonym: keeping anonymity. For me it was so that my professional life and my hobby did not collide, but for others anonymity could be integral to their safety.
And so The Torn Pages Project was born, a place where anyone, from anywhere can write anonymously to get things off their chest. My simple hope for anyone reading this is to know that whatever you are going through, you are not alone. Loneliness is one of the cruelest of human emotions, as it convinces you that no one cares. We care and we are here to listen.
I hope this project helps you as much as it has helped me.